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But Orlando Jones Knows The Bus Stop, too.

January 17, 2008 | Category: In My Life

They say to you that there's something bad in your brain. The size of golf ball. But no worries, yeah?

And at first, I was afraid (but not petrified). Thought, I'm not ready to leave this life. But then I bounced back, because there's no other good option that I've found. I made soup and loved my family and painted the dining room.

And then I fell down again.

Because I'm still afraid. It's still there. I don't want it there, but it is and no matter how hard I try I can't make it go away from my body or my awareness.

I fell down and stayed down. And cried.


Then someone called. Said they had work for me. The real thing, and a little money behind it.

And so I worked a bit. And taught my son some new sight words. And went for a long swim.

And now, I think, I'm almost standing. Not yet dancing. And still afraid.

But more here than before.

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When Pandora finally slammed the lid on the box, only hope was left inside.

so i'm hoping that you keep on keeping on.
and that on the days when you don't feel like like it and the tears come, you know that there's people that you'll never see, wishing you all the best.

Posted by: Her Imperial Majesty on January 22, 2008 07:49 AM

I think you're being human. That getting up after you fall down?

That's real courage. Doing the everyday stuff when you feel like curling up in a ball in bed.

That's the real stuff, man.

Posted by: paige on January 18, 2008 06:02 PM

I just want you to know that YOU ROCK. As we used to say back in the day.

Oh, and you have more guts when you are down than a lot of folks have standing.

Posted by: Laura on January 18, 2008 04:25 PM

You being even a little bit here is more than most people can manage all day, E. Go get 'em!

Posted by: rp on January 18, 2008 08:27 AM

Keep taking the next step. I think you're kicking butt, girl.

Posted by: Janie on January 17, 2008 11:37 PM