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Golden Slumbers
October 03, 2007 | Category: Bear Stories
Last night, Bear woke up around midnight and decided to go out to the kitchen.
"Bear," I said, following him. "What you doing?"
"Um, sleeping, and then I got hungry," he told me.
He was wearing his footie pajamas, the ones with his name embroidered on them. Looking tousled and adorable and not quite....awake.
"Sweetie, are you awake or are you sleepwalking?" Hey, it seemed reasonable to ask.
"Mommy," he sighed, looking down at where his toes wriggled under the fleece. "Do sleeping people want cereal?"
"Depends, what kind of cereal?"
He thought a moment. "Hamburger?"
"Yes, sleeping people want Hamburger cereal. Awake people want Apple Jacks or Cheerios."
He nodded, sagely. "OK, I'm asleep. Will you carry me back to bed?" Reaching for me.
So I picked him up, his arms wrapped around my neck, the heavy warm weight of him in my hands. And put him back to bed. Pulled up his Knights and Armor comforter. Made sure his stuffed animals were all safely stacked in their places. And kissed him goodnight, again.
"Mommy," he murmured as I left the room.
"Yes, Bear?"
"If you were still a kid, then we could have a sleepover. And go to the park tomorrow."
When I was a kid, I had princess nightgowns the twirled around my knees when I danced. I had a curtains my mom made that matched my comforter. I had my special blankie that made me feel safe. And the boys I played with liked Cops and Robbers and always made me the Robber.
I turned to answer, not sure actually what to say, and saw that he'd already closed his eyes. His breathing steadier, and steadier.
And my heart broke with love.
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