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She's Not Here

November 15, 2006 | Category: Family, It's a Trip



I don't have an image editing prgram here, so please excuse grainy pictures...
balcony2.JPG She had the chairs reupholstered to match the new sofa when I was in college. Soft Florida colors to match the palm trees and the waterview.

The card taped by the thermostat tells me in her handwriting to set the dial to "auto".

Her stapler is lined up with her tape dispenser on her desk. Liitle address stickers with her name.

The embroidery she was always working tucked, unfinished, with the crossword puzzle books on the shelf.

In the morning, the sun blasts onto the balcony.

I stir my coffee, and pad across the room. It's a shadow, I know. But my heart leaps before I can tell it no.

No.

It's been 5 years, heart.

You should know by now.

She's not here.


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This made me cry.

Posted by: gigi on November 18, 2006 10:24 AM


I still hear my grandad correcting my grammar a decade later - he can be pretty annoying! but I wouldn't change it

Posted by: dodo on November 18, 2006 04:59 AM


Sometimes I don't think thats a feeling that ever goes away. 29 years after my father died I think I see him out of the corner of my eye. 13 years after my grandmother died I swear I hear her voice.
What does it mean - I don't know; but I use those feelings, those moments and suck them into me just in case I never get them again.

Posted by: cursingmama on November 17, 2006 08:51 AM