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Hello, my name is...

May 11, 2006 | Category: In My Life

When I first said that I was leaving my job, someone asked in a comment if I would be shutting down this site or changing the name. At the time, I couldn't imagine either. After all, I am the Corporate Mommy.

Laptop bag over one shoulder, kid on my hip, hair highlighted, cell phone buzzing.

Only... not anymore.

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Me & Bear, Karate Tournament, 2/06

There's a great Princess Bride quote;. "Hello, my name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die." I've always wondered how Inigo would introduce himself if there had been a sequel, once the guy who murdered his father had died.

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CD & Bear, Minneapolis, 2/06

How do I introduce myself now? As simply the 'Mommy'? or 'Wife & Mommy'? These two males, are they my identity anchor now?

"What now? Who am I?" have been the questions that would pop into my head over and over as the roller coaster of the past few weeks has ripped me along for the ride.

If I thought life after a full-time job would give me a field of breathing room, I was seriously deluded.

I hosted a bridal shower for my firend Laura. I tackled a mountain of paperwork that came with becoming ex-employee. I discovered from a reporter that the nice neighbor across the street is an ex-Catholic Priest and a pedophile. I had my son tested for ADD.

Painted a bedroom. I returned to the Cathedral for the first time since I resigned, and took Communion. I reconnected with my husband after 5 years of growing apart. Attended a race. A Karate tournament. Visited with my father and stepmother. Made about 70 frillion pipe cleaner animals. I lost my mind. Cried my way through an economy bundle of tissues. Got my hair streaked with magenta. Contemplated a tatoo. Prayed.

Wallowed in self-pity even after I kept thinking I was "over it". Spent some serious sessions with a therapist.

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St. Jame's Cathedral, Chicago, Easter/06

Did a bagazillion errands. A small desktop publishing project. Decorated the bedroom. Cooked. Cleaned. Spent countless hours with my son.

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Bear, Lincoln's Monument in Grant Park, Chicago, 3/06

And something I didn't do...


The longest break I've taken in my journalling since I was 13 years old.

I didn't mean to. There were some technical problems. But mostly, there were spirit problems. As in, the spirit wasn't willing.

I would get up and look at the computer or at the notebook on the desk. And I wouldn't start.

Just... wouldn't start.

"Who" and"What" questions wrestling in my mind. My fingers still.

There's been no sunbeam moment that solved anything.

I hope that I'm forgiven for disappearing.

Now that I found my start.

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Sunshine, Chicago, 4/06

Hello. My name is Elizabeth Blair York.

I used to be a corporate mommy.

This is my journal.

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Way to go. Gald you are back.

Posted by: Chica on May 18, 2006 09:25 PM

Glad to have you back. It's so hard "watching" people go through depressing times and not being able to help. When I start to feel bad I get big reality checks. I read you all time time as well as this blog http://cancerbaby.typepad.com/cancerbaby/
Like you, she was an amazing writer but unlike our shared experience of a layoff she was dealing with a far more serious issue and helped me put my life in perspective. Bottom line - live for today, for your children and find joy in the simple act of awakening to discover another day. You rock and I'm such an admirer of your struggle and your acceptance of the unknown road ahead!

Posted by: Nicole on May 18, 2006 03:26 PM

Wonderful to have you back.

Posted by: karmajenn on May 17, 2006 06:51 AM

I changed my blog name after I stopped blogging for two years and I mourned the loss of that website for awhile, but I realized I mourned the loss of something else, not really the website. Sometimes change is good, if it comes at the right time.

Posted by: trish on May 16, 2006 02:26 PM

Include photographer in that - you, or someone, takes great photos.

Posted by: Mia on May 16, 2006 10:24 AM

Enjoy your blog. Gives me hope. I'm going through a rough time, one I think you've managed to pull through. Hope there's light at the end of the tunnel.

Posted by: Clair_v on May 15, 2006 08:35 PM

Hey girl! So glad to have you back!

Posted by: Monica C. on May 15, 2006 12:30 PM

yay! glad to meet you (again), Elizabeth.

Posted by: alice on May 15, 2006 09:13 AM

How about

"Hi! My name is Elizabeth."

You are a woman. You are gorgeous, talented, brilliant and powerful. You do it all.


Posted by: jozet on May 15, 2006 07:08 AM

You were missed :)

abs x

Posted by: abs on May 15, 2006 01:58 AM

Happy Mother's Day, my sweet.

Posted by: Margi on May 14, 2006 03:48 PM

So glad to see you back, E.

I am inspired by your post and your redefining yourself with this journal. I should look into doing that as well, after all.

Nice to meet you (again)!


Posted by: Sol on May 14, 2006 12:53 PM

You GO, girl.


Posted by: Margi on May 13, 2006 11:59 PM

ELIZABETH! Nice to meet you, again... I'm so glad you're back. Magenta highlights? That ROCKS, dude.

Posted by: Stacy on May 13, 2006 10:18 PM

Hi Elizabeth! However you choose to define yourself, I'm glad you're back.

Posted by: Kimberly on May 13, 2006 03:55 PM

So glad to have you back!

Posted by: Jacque on May 13, 2006 02:54 PM

Elizabeth...welcome back!
And...nice to meet the new you!

Posted by: Grace on May 13, 2006 10:38 AM

Guess you needed the break. Wow, you look happy in the picture, and pretty too. A guy friend once told me he thought the best makeup a woman could wear was a smile. That smile certainly worked for you.

Posted by: Susan on May 12, 2006 10:21 PM

Welcome back. You were missed.

Posted by: Polichick on May 12, 2006 07:51 PM

Missed you bunches - glad you're back (and sounding even better than ever)! :)

Posted by: beth on May 12, 2006 03:03 PM

Hi. Nice to meet you again. Glad you're back.

Don't be away so long next time!

Posted by: caltechgirl on May 12, 2006 12:09 PM

Welcome back. We missed you.

Posted by: abogada on May 12, 2006 10:51 AM

Hello! Glad to see that your back!
I hope things are going better for you.

Posted by: ashleigh on May 12, 2006 08:50 AM

You aren't back, you are brand new. Welcome.

Posted by: JC on May 12, 2006 06:21 AM

Welcome back! I was getting worried and hoping that you were having an adjustment period and not a "no more blog" period.


Posted by: paige on May 12, 2006 04:23 AM

Nice to meet you (again), Elizabeth!

Posted by: madrigalia on May 11, 2006 09:51 PM

I'm glad you're back - I've been worrying!

Loved the post - it made me exhale!

Posted by: Flikka on May 11, 2006 09:06 PM

Welcome back, Elizabeth! I've missed you.

Posted by: Ruth on May 11, 2006 07:58 PM

I've been checking in most every day too. I'm glad you're back and I enjoyed the photos!

Posted by: Jill on May 11, 2006 07:55 PM

Hi Elizabeth - Just dropping by to invite you to add your tradecard to the Supermom Gallery

Posted by: Helene on May 11, 2006 07:54 PM

Hi, I am so glad you are back! I've checked your blog daily and had started to get worried. I was going to try to send you an email today just to see if you were ok and amazingly you are here! I'm so glad you're back!! We've missed you!

Posted by: Cindy on May 11, 2006 07:18 PM

So happy to see you are back.

Posted by: mommy2wahid on May 11, 2006 01:47 PM

We missed you! I'm so glad you're back.

Posted by: cursingmama on May 11, 2006 01:27 PM

It's very nice to see you here again. And you know? I think a blog name change wouldn't be so bad. You're not the corporate mommy any more. You're Elizabeth. And there's so much more to you than a title.

Posted by: Jennifer on May 11, 2006 01:18 PM

Hi, honey. I missed you and I'm thrilled to see you back!

Posted by: RP on May 11, 2006 01:18 PM

Hello Elizabeth!

We're listening/reading.

Posted by: Northern_Girl on May 11, 2006 01:14 PM

Welcome back! I remember my surprise after leaving my old job at how BUSY I was as a SAHM. I look forward to reading the next chapter in your life.

Posted by: Donna on May 11, 2006 01:07 PM

Hello, dear. You're looking lovely.

Posted by: ieatcrayonz on May 11, 2006 12:56 PM

Hello and welcome back! Before anything else, I must ask....do we get to see a picture of the new hair streaks?!
I have the same dilemma when introducing myself. Am I a teacher, even though I've been out of the classroom for 4 years? Am I just the teacher's wife? A mom? What do I say when people ask "What do you DO all day?"
I've found it's best to just go with my name. That's who I am. Not His Wife, or Their Mummy, or The Teacher. Just me.

Posted by: Tammy on May 11, 2006 12:56 PM

Welcome back!

Posted by: Elizabeth on May 11, 2006 12:55 PM

Hello again.

Posted by: Genuine on May 11, 2006 12:53 PM

Welcome back... I was wondering what had happened and am happy to see a new post.

Posted by: Becky on May 11, 2006 12:11 PM

So glad you're back. :)

Posted by: Cheryl on May 11, 2006 12:10 PM