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Letting him down...

September 12, 2006 | Category: Mother to the First Power



There are days when I am just certain that I am the worst mommy alive.

Last year, I was all organized for Bear's birthday before we left for New England - I had the invitations, the address book, the reservation made at My Gym.

This year, in my chaos, I had to enlist CD long distance after I had already left. It took about 20 phone calls and 3 different reservations before we came to a date with My Gym and then I was in the strange position of sending out sort of anonymous Birthday Invitation fliers to his new school and invitations to his old classmates.

Last night we got a call from My Gym - however it happened in the flurry of calling in August... there was a miscommunication.

Bear doesn't have the venue for this weekend when we thought. Another party is in there at that time and they were confirmed first.

I tried to look calm as I broke the news to Bear. He listened, and didn't cry.

More stoic than me.


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Posted by: Caleb on September 18, 2006 04:34 PM


aww crap. Sorry hon. Don't worry, it will work out one way or another.

Posted by: caltechgirl on September 12, 2006 12:31 PM


Don't worry too much about the change in plans for the party. Kids are far more resilient than we give them credit for and Bear will bounce back from these little bumps in the road way easier.
However, that being said, I think it bears reflection that the reality seems to be that you got more done, were more energized, more efficient, more directed, dare I say even happier when you were busier? You seem like you've been lost for months, adrift, unhappy and confused.
It seems from the snippets of posts that CD and Bear sense it and the whole family's mood seems tentative. I tried to share an inkling of concern that perhaps the SAHM world wasn't the panacea you were painting it to be (having been on both sides of it in my own life).
Now that you've been out of the job for a few months, perhaps you might consider some opportunities that lie between the Type-A work world you left and the vacuum you live in now.
The financial pressure can't be good for CD and the tension about it can't be good for either of you. Bear will be in school all day - you don't need to be in an empty house all day alone (at least to my way of thinking). I would wish for you some middle-ground arrangement wherein you could be home FOR Bear, but working to contribute and ease the monetary tension during school hours. I think when you find the balance, your house will be neater, you will feel better, b'day party invites will go out on time, etc etc. It's an old cliche that if you want something done, give it to a busy person, but in your case it seems to be true.
Worth thinking about.
Sorry for the long post and I certainly don't mean to lecture. I just have come to care about you from afar after reading your blog for all this time and wanted to add some encouragement from my vantage point.

Posted by: Amy on September 12, 2006 11:34 AM