The envelope, please....

September 15, 2005 | Category:

Confession time.

I feel so DUMB at getting upset. OK, so someone said I acted superior. No big, right?

But I can't begin to tell you, it's just been - you know - a crappy week. And the truth is, that sometimes? I do feel like an ogre. A big, horrible, ogre who snaps at her son when he dawdles and who loses patience with the insanity of some of my team. Like I AM the scary woman who people avoid.

I catch a glimpse of myself in a window and remember being pretty and young and sweet and now, well, sometimes I see... old reflected back at me. Old but not wise. Just cold and unattractive and unlikable.

Which is probably why I am so overwhelmed, in a Sally Field way, that you've been so kind to me and said nice things. Like maybe they were left at the wrong blog, because really....

Uh, I have to change the subject or something, before I end up crying under the covers.....

SO. Um. Anyway.

About that poll! Where I asked the people of the internet, the kooky wonderful people who read HERE of all things, to vote where our family should move? And people got into the fun of it (yay for people!) and really voted. Which was actually pretty cool for CD and me, because we are at the crossroads with a blank slate and looking for a sign...

And the people said, (no contest!); PARIS. (The good kind. Not the skinny self-promoting, carrying a dog in my purse kind. Wait. Uh. You know what I mean.)

So, off we are going. Yes, to Paris. For my birthday, for 5 days in November.

And in second place? The people said, again loudly; DENVER OR THE TWIN CITIES.

And so, we are looking Denver and the Twin Cities. We figure it will take some time - a couple of years, about - to settle somewhere new. Scouting trips. And CD has to finish cross-training in a specialization of his IT career (find a way to let me be a SAHM!) - training his current company is sponsoring.

Meanwhile, though, we need an interim solution. Because I just can't stay in this house much longer. A place we can live for a year (ish)... and we've come up with two options (because there are two good Montessori schools)....

North, is pretty lake country near Wisconsin. Where we can get a house for less than we could sell this one for. In a tiny one-intersection town with a New England-like church steeple and antique shops. It would be a good house, with room enough and a kitchen that works, but it won't resell for much more than we buy it. Then again, the backyard would be a pond with ducks.

West, is prairie and a small (but booming fast) town with a water park and apple orchards and acres of corn dotted by red barns. It is an "executive" house to be built in a brand new development, that will stretch us to buy in the near term but will sell quickly once we figure out where we are going from here. And for a healthy profit.

We have to decide in the next 2 weeks because after that, the prices for all models in that development will be taking a jump... up, up, and out of our comfort zone.

Oh - and a story. The Catholic Church, some years ago, rented a bunch of billboards that said "If you are looking for a sign from God - this is IT. Consider the Priesthood." So I called a priest I used to work with and told him about the stir these things were causing.

He asked me what the billboards said, so I repeated the slogan. "You realize, of course," he laughed, "that they don't mean YOU."

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